im pulling through

ok it has been a rough couple of weeks or shall i say monthes, i have been strugling soo bad and i feel so terrible, i am making a change and i hope over that next week or so you will be able to see a change, cuz im trying hard, i would jsut liek it if you could pray for me cuz that would help so much .

ok do you knwo how hard it would be to lose a freind well i couldnt imagin it, i recentyl had to realize how bad it owul deb by seeing my best freind go through it and i cant take seeing her go through that it jsut breaks my heart but thank god she is doing better. i just couldnt imagine going through that, but i will say that cortney is such a more stronger than i am b/c i probably wouldnt wanna get outta the house for ever, but i am blessed to have such a strong freind like her. she is such a great freind adn i dont knwo what i would do wiht out her , i will sjtu say that i think god has put cortney in my life recently b/c me adn cortney have went through some of the same things adn we can understand each other perfectly she, is jsut another version of me adn i am another version of her. i sjut cant imagin not having her as a freind she has helped me out in so many ways that jsut amaze me. i sjut dont think i could ever do it on my own i am soo blessed by god that she is my best freind and i thank god every day that he gave me cortney as a freind.