living in fear

here resently i have been wanting to make a change in my walk with god, it has been soo hard to live with the feeling of wow if god comes back now i am going to hell, i want to be able to be happy and not be worried about the things that have been freaking me out and all the stress and i think if that was all of you have been wondering thats why i have been losing soo much weight i have been so scared of allot of things afn i have really been running away form god when i really shoudl have been allot closer i have been soo worried about the owrld adn not even thinkin about god adn i will eb the first to admit it, i want soo much to be rigth with god adn i dont want a cold heart anymore i want to live totally for him adn that sll so i sjtu want to say thanck you to all teh ppl who hav been praying for all of us teens b/c we really needed it and i have had a seriouse wake up call and i think all of the others have got one to so thanx adn god bless